Do you blog when you are down? ... I do, but not 'about' being down.
Having suffered from serious depression since I was 12 I tend to not really talk about how I am feeling mood wise. Those that live with me can not miss it though, but to the outside world I don't really like to talk about it. 'fine' & 'ok' are given when asked how I am, or if asked while I'm online I usually manage to avoid the question and ask about them.
... Depression is a funny thing isn't it ... unless you have suffered with it, it's hard to understand the total blackness and sick feeling when it descends ... It's also not really something I have seen many people blog about. Is that because there is a part of us that feels ashamed for feeling depressed? Ashamed that are lives are not perfect or how we want them to be? or do we see depression as a weakness? And yet when I look at my friends and family, I would say that probably over half have suffered with it at one time or another.
I not writing this to say 'poor me, I am having a bad day' ....... more that I just realised that no-one blogs about it ... which I haven't either ....................
anyway on a totally different note, I have chopped of 5 inches off the bottom of my hair ... it still comes down to my waist, but it needed it ...
I kind of feel all it needs is some goggly eyes and it could be a little creature ... or maybe some glasses .......... maybe I could sell it as a beard! haha
Having suffered from serious depression since I was 12 I tend to not really talk about how I am feeling mood wise. Those that live with me can not miss it though, but to the outside world I don't really like to talk about it. 'fine' & 'ok' are given when asked how I am, or if asked while I'm online I usually manage to avoid the question and ask about them.
Some people like to talk about how they feel all the time, which is probably very healthy and for the little day to day things I probably do too ... but with depression that is always there, just with different degrees of bearable-ness, I prefer to try and ignore it ... no-one can do anything or say anything to make it better so avoidance often works ... but not always ... Sometime it all gets too much ...
... Depression is a funny thing isn't it ... unless you have suffered with it, it's hard to understand the total blackness and sick feeling when it descends ... It's also not really something I have seen many people blog about. Is that because there is a part of us that feels ashamed for feeling depressed? Ashamed that are lives are not perfect or how we want them to be? or do we see depression as a weakness? And yet when I look at my friends and family, I would say that probably over half have suffered with it at one time or another.
I not writing this to say 'poor me, I am having a bad day' ....... more that I just realised that no-one blogs about it ... which I haven't either ....................
anyway on a totally different note, I have chopped of 5 inches off the bottom of my hair ... it still comes down to my waist, but it needed it ...
I kind of feel all it needs is some goggly eyes and it could be a little creature ... or maybe some glasses .......... maybe I could sell it as a beard! haha
